New year resolution.

I usually dont set any new year resolutions, I dont think I should wait for the end of the year to decide to do something to improve my life same as I usually dont like to wait for Mondays to start a diet, or more appropriate, healthy regimen.

This year went so fast, but it feels like the past 20 years went like the blink of an eye anyway.

If I was to set a goal for the 2010, it would be to be healthier and spend more quality time with my family. Travel would be also very nice, I just dont see that happen soon.

I guess I should set a goal for my business, after the slow bump I had during these holidays and the catching up I have to do, there is alot to be done and planned, but honestly right now I am just dreading it.

I thought taking time off would do the trick and help me reset, but I was wrong. Instead I came back to a lots of work and not much energies to actually do the job.

Also beginning of the year means fees! Money lots of money to keep this thing going and at this point I am not too sure is still worth it.

I wish I felt exited and full of new ideas to start the new year with DesiderioChocolates in full gear, but I dont and the only thing that makes me feel at ease is the thought of letting it go.

Maybe a year off?

But then I dont want to disappoint all the family and friends that always supported and believed in me, the customers that never stopped appreaciating my work and for whom I feel extremely grateful.

Well still a year off would be better than just completely give up on the past 6 years of work, hopes and sacrifices.

Today is the 30th of December I need to make a decision.

What to do?

I see the light!

Ok ok, I might have been a tad pessimistic and a pinch freaked out, but I think today I see the light!
Yesterday after I got off from work I went to the kitchen and there I tried to relax and don't feel in a pinch. I like when I can take my time to create something, my chocolates are my art, my stress relief, well they are when I don't have a deadline anyway.
Well I worked passed midnight and I did manage to finish everything I had in my list, I am very proud and tired, but I am not done yet. Since I am still at work and will be for few more hours, I will have to go back after work and finish up everything. I really want to make sure the case is nice and full with all of those edible gems, make sure I don't disappoint anybody, I hate that.
After these holidays I need to have a plan for the next one, so I don't end up so stressed out, tired and what is most important, I don't leave anybody without chocolates!!

Back and not ready.

I know the title of the blog is deceiving because I really have not posted much about my chocolate adventure.
I was hoping to be more motivated once I was back home, come out with some new ideas to start my holiday production with an extra gear.
The actual plan was to dive full time into my chocolate business, but life got in the way and we had to go with it. That is why I got tired and demotivated about my chocolates, there are too many things to take care of on a daily basis, and so few energies left.
Usually every time I was in the kitchen to make chocolates, it was a relaxing time, I enjoyed every minute of it, but lately is just another thing I have to do and it is not so enjoyable or even inspiring, I just want to be done with it.
The vacation was extended an extra week which usually is a good thing, but when you are in the middle of the busiest season, it is a suicide! I should have known better, but my hubby really needed it and I was happy to enjoy the family little longer.
Now though,I am in trouble, the production is way way behind and I am experiencing some major pain in my hands and arms, I have carpal tunnel syndrome and the extra work I was welcomed back with, at my day time job, didn't help at all. Now I have not much left to get the chocolates done. Plus I found the kitchen very warm, which is a big no no, that messed with colors temper and the chocolate. So I find myself have to re clean the molds and what is worst polish them!! I am afraid I am not going to be able to do more than just fill the case at the Glacier at this point, and that would be ok I guess, I need to make sure I get back in gear for the next season which is right behind the corner.